I stood in the mirror shortly after that doing some Louise Hay exercise which would probably helped if I hadn’t been in such a state of disorientation. I was supposed to look in the mirror and tell myself I was proud of myself. My hair was a wreck, my eyebrows were all over my face and the old t-shirt and sweatpants told a different story. I had pulled my once glorious hair back into a bun leaving my worn, drawn face pinched and severe. I was proud of this? I was proud of myself? That was the first good laugh I had had in a long time.
I looked closer in the mirror and thought, Who the Hell is That? It was a version of me that was ungroomed, unkempt, overfed and underexercized. My complexion was dull and my eyes where smudged with dark shadows from lack of sleep. Yeah baby, what am I proud of? Getting up? Surviving. Well, yes actually I was.
I had gone through death, divorce, foreclosure and building a company on a shoestring all by myself in just under two years.. Not bad. But I looked like it. I looked worn out and ready for the trash heap. I know looks aren’t everything, but when you are a women and you look in the mirror and don’t like what you see its really hard to feel powerful, take risks, be the best you can be and start over. The sad thing was I didn’t know where to being. I looked at my feet. Toes, I thought. That’s a good place to start.
That day I sat down in my bathroom and gave myself a really good manicure and pedicure. I couldn’t afford to go to a salon at that point and I fought without myself the whole time. Why are you doing this? Who’s going to notice your hands and feet? Who’s going to care?
I am. I said it out loud. I care. And that’s how it started.
Internet Brand Strategist Sandra Beck, owner of Motherhood Incorporated is also the host of Motherhood Talk Radio and Military Mom Talk Radio powered by Toginet Communications. A powerful advocate for mothers’ right to choose what is best for their family and using technology to make those choices possible, Sandra Beck paves the way for women today to determine the course of their own lives and live their best possible life. Sandra Beck makes her home inActon,California. She is the single mother of two young boys, Max and Zachary Levin and she is the author of The Smart Woman’s Guide to Working from Home and Blogphoria – How to Reach Millions without Spending a Dime.
Sandra Beck has authored a Life Coaching Lesson Series titled Starting Over but Not From Scratch and author of Bouncing with Style. based on her experience as a stay at home mother, full time working mother, part time working mother and self employed mother working from home. It is her hope that these articles help women create their own life with respect to their needs of themselves and their family. These articles are offered for informational purposes only and are not intended to take the place of a licensed professional.