Starting Over but Not from Scratch and author of Bouncing with Style. #8
And then a funny thing started to happen. I started enjoying going to the gym. I fired up my Ipod and put on some music that was new to my head and my heart and began to ride. At first I only stayed on the bike. I rode until my lungs burst and my body was sweating from head to toe. You know what? I started feeling great. For the first time in over a year I felt healthy, happy and vibrant. So one day a week turned into two. Two turned into four and I even signed up at a gym near my church so I could trot over after worship.
Did I meet guys? Sure I did, but I wasn’t interested. Some were tall and athletic and drove fancy cars. Some were chunky and hunky and drove pickup trucks. This was a big step for the girl who wasn’t interested in anything but surviving, and was once worried that no one would like her ever again. That was the divorce talking. That was the hate filled words spoken by my ex that resonated in my head.
I was going to the gym for me. For my sanity and for my health. The more I pedaled the closer I got to myself and the further I rode away from the ravages of divorce. Each week I turned down at least one hopeful suitor. I felt bad for them, but I knew that I had a long road ahead of me to get myself to where I wanted to be – physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually. I was alone for the first time in my life and I was enjoying myself.
Sure there were some lonely moments, but to have only myself to work on was a blessing. I read books I had wanted to read for years. I took walks on the beach. I cried in my bowl of soup for one. But most importantly I met myself again through the silence. With the help of a good therapist, some wonderful friends, my outstanding family I was over the worst. Or so I thought.
Internet Brand Strategist Sandra Beck, owner of Motherhood Incorporated is also the host of Motherhood Talk Radio and Military Mom Talk Radio powered by Toginet Communications. A powerful advocate for mothers’ right to choose what is best for their family and using technology to make those choices possible, Sandra Beck paves the way for women today to determine the course of their own lives and live their best possible life. Sandra Beck makes her home inActon,California. She is the single mother of two young boys, Max and Zachary Levin and she is the author of The Smart Woman’s Guide to Working from Home and Blogphoria – How to Reach Millions without Spending a Dime.
Sandra Beck has authored a Life Coaching Lesson Series titled Starting Over but Not From Scratch and author of Bouncing with Style. based on her experience as a stay at home mother, full time working mother, part time working mother and self employed mother working from home. It is her hope that these articles help women create their own life with respect to their needs of themselves and their family. These articles are offered for informational purposes only and are not intended to take the place of a licensed professional.