By Danee Kiernan
Life is Almost Always Good and co-author of Bouncing With Style. #24
January Fifteenth, Two Thousand and Eleven….
After spending the day with Mom in hospice, my daughter and I left for home.
A short time later, a nurse named Kathy, called to tell me that my Mom had just passed away.
At that moment, I felt like I physically moved out of my body. I began receiving and sending actions and words in slow motion.
I was controlled as I told my older kids and my husband. I was calm as I called my brother and aunt. I was strong as I put on my winter coat and boots to make the long, all too familiar drive to hospice.
I was controlled. I was calm. I was sane. I was strong. I was alone.
My brother, my daughter and I gathered in my Mom’s room. Mom was there.
I looked at her face, her hands, her still body under the covers. I looked at the room that we had spent hundreds of hours in, day after day. I looked at the holiday cards, the get well cards and family photos. I looked at the gingerbread houses that the kids made and Mom’s crossword puzzle book on the table. I looked out the window into the darkness.
After some time, the Pastor came in and asked us if we wanted to pray. We held hands and prayed. I knew my Mom would have liked that. We carefully packed up all of Mom’s things to bring home.
Mom would have liked that too.
I wondered if she was there with us….Watching……
We left the room all together. I carried Mom’s red winter coat that she had worn when she arrived and pulled her blue suitcase filled with her clothes behind me. My brother and daughter carried her boxes of memories. We moved down the hallways to the exit in slow motion.
We had walked this path dozens of times before and for an instant I realized that I had never once pictured this scenario. The last time we would be leaving this building.
It’s crazy to think that in so many times in our lives, we are so aware of what’s happening……and yet so unaware at the same time….
Danee Kiernan is a writer, parent, entrepreneur and co-author of Bouncing with Style: Starting over but Not From Scratch. She connects with others based on her experiences as a full time woman, full time mom (adoptive, birth & foster), stay at home mom, working woman and business owner. She hopes that sharing her experiences openly will help others to find their bounce. Danee is a powerful advocate for women’s rights, especially every woman’s right to choose her own destiny and build the life that she desires.
Danee KIernan earned a BS degree in Elementary Education with an early childhood specialization from Iowa Wesleyan College, and an MBA from the University of Wisconsin-Milwaukee. Danee believes in the importance of love, family and pursuing dreams. She makes her home in Wisconsin, where she and husband Jim, are thoroughly enjoying the experience of raising their 12 children.
You can reach Danee Kiernan at firstname.lastname@example.org